I Made My Decision

Before, I haven’t been able to make choices and then stick to it in end. I somehow find myself switching from yes to nos. Seeing as I never got to do things on my own time before, I do now. I got into the habit and cleansing my mind off certain circuminstances and other things by going on runs and and doing things I wanted to do. I actually took the time to take a break from everything, and made the time to do things I would do in my daily life.

While I’m on my runs and all, I’ve also been thinking about what I occasionally did before as hobbies and how I got tired of it, like playing video games, reading all these books, uploading photographs, blogging and basically spending time at home too much. It was quite isolating and I felt like I slacked off too much. Don’t get me wrong, I still went out, spent time with a friend, and have some bonding time with my family. But it is different now because it feels like I’m more out there, I have been more independence in doing things my way. I still do my art and stuff in preparation for art school next year, so that’s the only thing that gets me through somehow.

I’ve made decisions, some simple and some that’ll go along in time. I made up my mind that I won’t be blogging on Tumblr for a while. I don’t go on the computer much, considering I spend my time drawing now and going to the gym. I don’t feel like when I can I could just please everyone all the time like I did, I’m sorry. I use to upload what people wanted and now I don’t feel inspired to do so because of my neglecting towards myself. I have a life to make up for, and I’d like to have it this way. I don’t know if blogging this all is gonna make things better, considering I don’t have more followers here anymore than I did and I have already lost appreciation from others. I have accepted negative and positive messages, and this has helped me in making the decision to do so.

I do photograph. Since I do carry my phone around, I still use Instagram as a way of using that as a hobby. This became sort of a hobby because it does not take up my time and it’s convenient for me. As mentioned my feed is always on my blog, so you may check it out of wish.

I do want to thank the other bloggers I have interacted with. Your work is one of the things in which what made me inspired to do my own work. And for all your hard work in all that you do, thank you. Especially messages that you’ve sent me thank you.

I do have a twitter and I update some times. You can check that as well here: http://www.twitter.com/ellemacetweets. I may mention a few things like what I currently doing throughout the day, my progress in art and plans I tend to do later on in time.

Again, thanks for keeping up with me. A lot of love goes out to you.

Anonymous
Hey, you have such good uploads ;) I see you posted a recent entry on relationships too:I I get relationship crisis too? But me and bf get along well!:DD I was wondering when your uploading again? You should post more entries it's so relatable..

That’s good! If you love each other, you should fight for it! You might regret just leaving it when you still have feelings that can actually make it work… Oh, and no I don’t have a boyfriend. I’ve never been in love. :P School first! That’s my priority.

Thank you for your comment. :) I’m uploading a little, but mostly it is redirecting from my Instagram because I’m always busy; I never can find time to go on the computer because I’m always out or doing something. I only post entries when a lot has been on my mind or I simply want to let everything out, nothing to personal. But I will post them when I do. I’ve signed up for a portfolio drawing class which would enable a higher rate into getting this scholarship I want. I start in the next months or so, and I have already planned on uploading my work for time, I’m just contemplating on it. I’ve started this other project too, but I put it on hiatus and I don’t know when I’ll get that mojo back. Maybe when I’ve focused on the scholarship, my mind will set. I will upload more art inspirations soon, please look back in time again. :)

Random shots, edited. (@ellemace)